Ready for some ambiguity? Here it goes: I have a problem. There are three....let's say, stray cats, that this one (aka, me) is trying to get rid of because she really can't take care of them, but they keep coming back. She likes them a lot, but knows it wouldn't be any good to let them stay (considering she's allergic to cats). I'm trying to demonstrate my other problem but I can't think of a way to make it more vague, lol. Oh, those kitties. Why must they be so wonderful? She wishes they would turn into some ugly animal (which is really hard for her to even concieve as being existent) so they wouldn't be as appealing anymore. Rawr.

Umm, yeah, besides that...I'm happy that Thanksgiving is coming up. And I saw Happy Feet yesterday! Soo cute!

Here I am, once again, just torn into pieces....

Sike, no, not really, I just wanted to use that as an opening (guess the song reference and you'll get cool points).

I've had an interesting day. For some reason, I've been unreasonably irritable. It definitely has *insert sarcastic voice* nothing *end sarcastic voice* with two of my friends, refusing to listen to me. They find it most entertaining to steal my pens/pencils/erasers and wait how long it takes for me to notice, because they enjoy watching me suffer. I'm plain sick of it. Doesn't matter how many times I ask/demand them to stop and they don't seem to notice how upset I get. I know, you're thinking, "d00d, they're just writing utensils, GET OVER IT" Well, if this was done constantly, you'd be annoyed....especially when people are having fun at YOUR expense. And you're probably saying, "Loosen up, friends are allowed to laugh and mess with each other". I know, I do the same, but I at least give it a rest when I've clearly made the person angry.

So that hasn't helped my mood. Among other things.

And either I'm just having an emotional day, or this song really is as powerful as it seems to be. This song is from Skillet's new album Comatose. (Skillet is an amazing Christian rock band....for those who think Christian bands suck, think again. You gotta check them out). The song is called "The Last Night" and pretty much had me in tears.


You come to me with your scars on your wrist
You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this
I just came to say goodbye
I didn't want you to see me cry, I'm fine
But I know it's a lie

[Chorus:]
This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everywhere you want me to be
The last night you'll spend alone
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go
I'm everything you need me to be

Your parents say everything is your fault
But they don't know you like I know you they don't know you at all

I'm so sick of when they say
It's just a phase, you'll be o.k. you're fine
But I know it's a lie

[Bridge:]
The night is so long when everything's wrong
If you give me a chance
I will help you hold on
Tonight
Tonight

[Altro:]
I won't let you say goodbye
And I'll be your reason why
The last night away from me
Away from me


Tell me what you think of it. I'm curious.

In other news, I'm in the process of baking brownies....the mixer thing started to smoke while I was mixing the ingredients. That was special. I think it's about dead or was soon going to explode.....

Anywaaaaay, I have three new fishes! They're black skirt tetras and their names are...*drum roll* Tamaki, Haruhi, and Hikaru (my favorite love triangle-thing from Host Club). Pippin and Cherry Chibi Napoleon are tolerating them pretty well.

Now, I'm not so sure about Vic being my princess, lol, but I thought this was pretty accurate. I love Oathkeeper too! How great is that? And by the way, I never needed Mickey to save me when I was fighting Xaldin. I just felt like I needed to adress that.

In other news...ummm, oh wait, there is none! I don't even think I'm kidding either. Bai kids. Oh wait just kidding (my memory/spazziness amazes me), did I mention that I think Light Yagami (from Death Note) must die? You know, it's like Romeo Must Die. Or John Tucker Must Die. Well, it's that Yagami brat's turn. Any psycho kid who's convinced that he's gonna become God by killing criminals (and anyone/everyone else who gets in his way, or makes things more convinient) needs to go. Especially considering what he did to my *insert name of favorite character*!! That was so uncool to the max.

Today was filled with so much laughter, my head hurt....it didn't help that my head was already hurting from trying to understand Nihilism in Apologetics and Ethics class. That stuff makes NO sense. The rest of the day, we were pretending to be nihilistic, which resulted in a particular friend of mine throwing my stuff around the room, telling me it was valid for her to do so, because everything was relative anyway and on top of that, how did I really even know whether she really chucked my pencil on to the floor? It could have been an illusion for all I cared. Yeah. No wonder Nietzche ended up in an asylum.

During art, the teacher made us do this random exercise where we had to draw toy animals as if they were in a whirlwind. While some of us were drawing a giraffe, one of my friends just kept singing, "it's an unusual giraffe..." Nothing more, nothing less. Of course, I joined in the madness, and soon, the whole table was singing it. I love my senior class, lol.

Some how, strangely, I'm slightly addicted to Death Note now (I was getting my hair done randomly and was literally on the edge of my seat reading it, my heart going super fast)...and am forcing my brother to read it with me (I absolutely love L by the way, he's so cute!). So yeah. Don't tell me anything, or you will have pain of a thousand years! Ok, not really, but that'll make me really unhappy. And since I just got home like, an hour ago and haven't touched any homework, I gots to jam.

The subject is totally irrelevant to what I'm gonna be blabbing about, just to warn you. But the song is stuck in my head, and I like to take the lyrics of whatever song I'm listening to and randomly plop it in the title. I may do that more often from now on.

Anyway, the week has been interesting. The highlight would most definitely be me and a friend at Caribou Coffee and the drunk man coming into the shop. Oh, did I mention that it was like, four o'clock in the afternoon when he came staggering in? Who gets drink by 4:00 PM?! Yeah, that was rather awkward and hilarious at some points. Eventually, one of the barista people made him leave. Thank God. Sure, it was pretty amusing, but he was loud, annoying, and asked my friend, "ARE YOU A FEMALE? YOU BETTER BE!" (And yes, she was a female...with long curly hair, mind you...)

(Another highlight would definitely be my dad yelling at me that I need to drink milk like a proper person.....yeah, that's a whole other story, lol, it was basically one of the funniest things in the world.)

Besides that, I've throughly stuffed myself with pizza, bubble tea and a pork bun. You know, like those things they eat in Azumanga Daioh?? lol, yeah, it was pretty exciting.

In conclusion, I've got test corrections, a paper, and lots of other miscelleanous homework to do that I couldn't do a lot of on Saturday (and just didn't get around to on Friday). But of course, because I "prioritize" I'm off to watch Death Note (I'm not sure if I like it as much as I like FMA, Bleach, Host Club, etc, cuz it kinda lacks in the comedy department, but I have to admit, it's pretty compelling) and THEN, get to my studies. Ja ne

I just watched the last episode of Host Club this morning because hearing everyone else talk about it was killing me and I can't stand spoilers, so before anything got ruined, I watched it. Man, I replayed that long scene with "Shissou" playing in the background a few times. It was so wonderful and made me so happy. *feels warm and fuzzies*. I officially think Haruhi is one of the coolest female characters ever. She rocks my socks off the hizzle, fo sho (not sure what inspired me to do that). Of course, now I'm sad it's over and am almost willing to bear with the manga to get more Ouran goodness. Shoujo manga art annoys me for some reason.

Ummm, my brain and I ran out of things to say. *Sigh* I'm tired. I'm off to tackle my homework. Forgive me for my pointless post.

Ok, so I've been reading Nobuhiro Watsuki's (the creator of the beloved series Rurouni Kenshin) new manga called Buso Renkin. I mean, it's not another Fullmetal Alchemist and nor is it another Rurouni Kenshin...it's a little bit combined, but at the same time, not so much at all. But that's not even the point of me posting. No. Oh no. I needed to share something else, yet still related.

Now, what do you think of when you think "villain"? Imagine someone now. Ok, got it? Let's compare YOUR brand of villain and Watsuki's. Ready?



Are you sure?





Here it is:


Is it me, or this does not scream evil person? More like, fruitcake in a speedo (and yes, there is a picture of a butterfly on that there speedo). This does not say "fear me". This says, "be terrified out of your mind cuz I'm coming after you IN MY UNDERWEAR!"

What will they think of next?

*Sidenote: In Hikaru and Kaoru's character song (from Host Club, of course), "Bokura no Stye", who is singing first? lol, I've thought that Hikaru had a deeper voice so I thought he sang second, but I looked up the lyrics and it says Hikaru sang first. Now. I'm confused.*

Well, the parentals are outta town and thus, I was left with mi mama's car so Nii-san doesn't have to tote me around everywhere. And now, day one of my "independence":.

First, SAT class at UMD (where I must tell you, I saw a college student who definitely had one of those Yu-Gi-Oh! card deck shooter..things on his arm. To say in the least, it was an "oh snap" moment for me. I saw this other college guy w/ a Yu-Gi-Oh! shirt on, and thus assumed they're having some kind of...gathering...tournament..thing over there...Too bad I think Yu-Gi-Oh! sucks....).

After curdling my brain with another practice SAT test, I headed over to Downtown Silver Spring blasting music I found in my room from back when I was like, in middle school (listening to it as I speak), heading to the Borders in hopes to find John Piper's "Pleasures of God" book cuz I have to make a presentation on Chapter 1 tomorrow and my copy is w/ another student....unfortunately, they did not have it (I'll figure something out...), but I bought two Kingdom Hearts manga (cuz they're like, $6.00 each...I mean, how can you go wrong w/ $6.00 manga?! And I don't care what anyone says, I think the manga is adorable *squeezes Sora's cute little cheeks* lol)! I promptly went to Starbucks to indulge in a chai tea frappaccino and went back home......

Only to be locked out of my house because I left my keys in the house (I had a spare car key). Fortunately, Nii-san likes me and let me back inside after I rang the doorbell a thousand times.

I just watched episode 10 of Ouran High School Host Club and died of laughter. Sure, I was disturbed by the drag queen dad but the rest of it was hilarious. It makes me wanna find a download so I can have it on Izumi (my laptop) always so if I need to laugh, I can just play that puppy. xD. Now I have to do homework....that I didn't do all weekend....pray that my stupidity in procrastinate dissipates...quickly, lol.

***********edit: a while later**************

Squeee!! I found online text of the chapter I needed! Yay, I'm so glad that God loves me....

Just as Mary told me, I seem to be bipolar. Or maybe it was that I fell off my sugar high. Cuz when I was driving home, I was as mad as...well, you know, while the beginning of the day I was pretty peppy. I don't even know why. I had no real legitimate reason to be angry either.
Well, actually, I was really frustrated w/ statistics. I haven't learned anything and we're expected to take the AP exam...annnnd, I'm not so sure how this AP Spanish thing is gonna work out. I cannot learn to speak in Spanish fluently by May. I know I can't. And my only other sucky option is to take conceptual physics. So, if the Spanish thing doesn't work, I'll have to catch up with the conceptual physics class and probably fail that class, and if the Spanish thing works, I'll probably fail the exam....gotta love the options there. To top it all off, I have SAT class tonight. I just don't feel like going, that's all. I wanna skip everything, and just have all the good times one has in their last year of high school. I guess I'm dreaming.

But all is not lost. Travis is letting me borrow Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories (and his Gameboy Advance!), which made me very happy. I had fun w/ Kristin and Mary at lunch today....and that's about all the good I can think of. There probably was, I'm just too pissy to remember. Nyaaaah, I'm not supposed to feel this way yet! It's only the second week of school for crying out loud *holds head in hands*

Ok, so I happened to turn on Cartoon Network and saw Naruto on. Now, in the back of my mind, I'm going "do you really wanna watch? The English voice actors kind of kill it...especially Naruto himself" but the other part of me, the larger part that doesn't think a lot goes, "Ooooh! ANIME! Rock Lee vs. Gaara, omg, let's watch!!!"

I've read that part in the manga already, but I decided to watch it. That was a mistake. I'm sorry, I really do like Naruto, but sometimes, it gets waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay past dramatic. Like, the whole thing about Rock Lee totally getting punished by Gaara and partially by himself from using that really powerful attack. My goodness, Gai-sensei was in tears and Naruto...would not stop yelling. He always yells. Constantly. It's more than obnoxious. I'm thinking, "My God, does he have volume control? It's one thing to be hyper, but to have your voice at a high volume at all times?!" Oh, and did I mention the abundance of flashbacks?! lol, it was like extreme deja vu.

I'm not doing that again. Not even if I'm desperate. I'll stick to Japanese and reading the manga, thank you very much.


In other news....I'm thankful it's Saturday, aka, I've survived my first week of school. Nothing too dramatic. Oh, besides the fact that I was pulled out of class by my art teacher to help her "punk" the principal, lol. That was exciting.....and ok, so we didn't really, actually, "punk" him, but it was still fun.
I happen to be taking three to four AP classes (the fourth one is pending...AP Spanish) this year...I only intended on taking one too. I don't even wanna talk about how that came about.

But anyway, I'm so excited about the whole "being a senior" thing and all of it's little goodies. Off-campus lunches, senior trip (and a longer Easter break), getting kidnapped by the headmaster for a day, senior pranking, senior profiles in the school newspaper (hahaa, i'm weird), getting out of high school, driving to school all by myself listening to the music I want to listen to at the volume I want to listen to it, people looking up to me as if I'm important or cool (even tho a vast majority of the lowerclassmen are taller than me...go figure)...I'm hoping all those things will make up for the loads of homework, the 20 page thesis at the end of the year, AP exams, and trying to get into college.


I know, I know, long post, but this is the last thing I have to say: my quote for the day. The scenario, me watching Naruto and my grandma walks by, looks at the screen and says, "Is that Sesame Street?" xD >.< She's 83 years old, lol, forgive her.

Yo. Like I said in Japanese, it's been a while and a lot has happened...I guess: "Monster House" with Tammy and Jen, my lifelong friend came by from Houston for a week (I saw Monster House with her too), finally finished Kingdom Hearts II (without the power going out on me...), I got my license (hallelujah! *happy dances, happy dances*), spent 12+ hours at Otakon (with Lydia for a part of it, and my other friend Travis...and I saw the wonderful FMA movie...which led me to watch all four FMA OVAs on YouTube), sang with my old choir at a church (and went out to lunch afterward with one of the members), got hooked on the soundtrack of "Wicked" (even though I have not seen the show, but read the entire synopsis on Wikipedia), finished Huck Finn for school, watched the third Inuyasha movie from 2 o'clock to 4 o'clock on Sunday morning (while riding the exercise bike...to say in the least, my butt was long past numb), taught inner-city kids about the wonders of anime/manga and Japanese music, and had some quality time with the fam....watching, more movies of course. Such as Madea's "I Can Do Bad All By Myself" (can I just say that Madea is my hero? lol), "Dr. Dolittle 3" (meh, it was alright), and "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory" (Tim Burton + Danny Elfman + Johnny Depp = hilaaaaaaaaaaaaarity...and slight creepiness, lol, but all the more entertaining)

Oh, and I found this haiku generator thingy mad00der. It takes text from one of my journal entries, and umm, haikuizes it. Check it out...I did a couple because I'm bored, and umm...yeah, can't think of anymore legit reasons

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artists were kinda all over the place such is my taste in music
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Wow, today was weird. I was really tired at first, and then after some Tazo Chai Tea, I was slightly bonkers. Especially during lunch. I've discovered that I sing songs in my head subconsciously while talking, it's strange. It's a habit I seemed to have developed while I was at this camp. Does that imply something? I don't know. I was scary today. Trying to explain Kingdom Hearts to Jennifer, the unknowing-one and only non-anime/manga/video game lover out of my little "posse" (of three other people, oh man, I'm so gangsta). Ok, so it's not necessarily MY posse, but whatever. Lydia and I demonstrated a beautiful performance of Simple and Clean.

I was Sora and she was Kairi. Well, in my head, I was Sora because whenever I play pretend, I always end up being the boy cuz no one else will be girl enough to take the job. Yeah. It was an emotional experience. Lydia and I also managed to ruin Spiderman 2 for Jennifer (by talking, giggling, doing stupid things while MJ and Spidey are like, professing their love for each other or something) and she attacked us with her flip-flop. I think we were on magical crack today....the kind that comes from having too much sugar (ie, cinnastix from Domino's....). And to top off the day of....well, whatever you can possibly call it, me, Lydia, Yuting, and Amanda, and Tammy sang "Butterfly" at the end of the Arts! Cafe. Yes, the DDR song. Embarassing? Yes. Fun? Yes yes. Worth making fools of ourselves? Definitely.

Now off to finish this poem that was supposed to be written almost a week ago *sweatdrop*

So, I just came back from the Arts! Cafe. It was brilliant. I'm officially "in love" with two brothers who do this music thing together. They are so awesome to the max. The theater group was also veeery good. They pretended to be on a pirate ship, due to my request. One of them said savvy. It made my night. I read a poem, one about my varying taste in music, Jennifer and Grant read some fiction. They were both really good, but I'm partial to Jennifer's piece.

Ashita, watashi-tachi wa Washington e ikimasu! Yay for my attempt to say, "Tomorrow, we're going to Washington!" You should have seen me try to tell time. I was struggling with how to say 13 minutes....so sad. I need to get back to my lessons in that. Yeah. Today was a crazy day. I had like, 3 two many CinnaSticks from Domino's. I was slightly crazy hyper.....*cough*.



p.s. Today was not a nightmare, I just thought of it cuz Silly Liddy (yes Lydia, that's what I'm calling you from now on, every now and then anyway, lol), was playing music from the Nightmare Before Christmas, that which I still need to see. I mean, after practically becoming friends with Jack Skellington, meeting Sandy Claws, fighting Oogie Boogie, and hating Shock, Lock, and Barrel in Kingdom Hearts II, I've gotta see the movie now...

Ok, someone pleeeeeeeease tell me why everyone is beating up on Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest. I mean, why is everyone saying it was horrible? Is my taste that bad? Am I that uncritical about movies? What the heck is going on?!?! It's everywhere! Saying stuff like Johnny Depp wasn't funny as Captain Jack Sparrow, and there was too much action and little plot, and all sorts of junk like that. Ok, either I really am as easily entertained as I claim, or all the reviewers are on crack. Johnny. Depp. Was. Freakin'. Hilarious. Who else can make facial expressions like he does? Not to mention all the weird unnecessary hand gestures, but they're so great. I'm ranting about this because I just watched this "review" thing by Ask a Ninja, or something like that. It was amusing, but it was still bashing PotC:DMC. Hahaha, abbreiviations....Anyway, I've only seen a couple things that actually give it some praise. All the rest are like, "it sucked" basically. Gosh!

As stated, week one at Summer Arts! is over. I spent the afternoon, a large marjority of it, singing with one of the girls in my class and one of the girls who live in the same suite where the girl in my class lives. It was great. We probably irked everyone in there..but it was great. The genres and artists were kinda all over the place (such is my taste in music). Let's see, first there was Evanescence, somehow to Hikaru Utada, Michael Jackson came up, a bit of gospel, Disney, Weezer, the Killers...and the randomness continued. Yeah. And then we decided to go to the gym and I stayed there, trying to read Huckleberry Finn when I ended up finishing a picture I was working on. I could not read that book. I can tell now that it will be veeeeeeery difficult. It's just not interesting.

In the end, I never got to the Terp Zone. Heh, oh well, I'm way past over. I'm definitely now going to YouTube to watch more Host Club cuz the one who encouraged me to get this lemme watch it with her, and even tho it's really strange, I found it entertaining. Here I go!

Oooh, it's my first journal peeps. Yeah. I feel like I should really write more than this, cuz I'd hate to waste such a great subject, lol, even tho it's not the subject, but it's my favorite line from a song.....the one I'm listening to right now anyone. My friend from the Arts! encouraged me to get one of these....so here I am.
I'm too lazy to write out what happened today. But it was full of fun and excitement and randomness, YAY!

Alright, this is where it ends